I guess we really won’t be getting back together. you made it clear by saying that’s it. so fine. if that’s what you want okay. it doesn’t seem like you wanted to get back anyways.
you didn’t really make me feel loved when we were together. which is why I was sad all the time. you just expected me to know by you saying it before we slept. but you never really proved it to me fully. maybe it’s just cuz we acted as if we were just friends when we were with eachother. ideeeno. that’s just how I felt. whatever. doesn’t really matter anymore.
and I was just kidding about me liking someone. I only said that cuz I thought maybe i would be able to see if you still cared. which kinda sucks that I had to lie to you about something like that just to feel like you still cared about me. but I guess that didn’t work. and if when you heard that you thought oh fine I’m gonna like other girls then, to me is kinda like that you just wanna do that just to hurt me not cuz you wanna see if I’d care but to just make me feel like shit which kinda sucks.
i don’t think ive ever been this sad over you since 7th grade. actually, i think this time is worst because this time i wanna cry every 5 seconds, but i cant cry anywhere in this house when someone won’t know. especially since were leaving like every 30 minutes to go to san bruno. when were done for today, im gonna take a shower, and just cry my eyes out in there.
my eyes are different sizes shut up. trying to do my english project! its a good book tho!
